From Heartbreak to Hope: Rebuilding Your Life After Loss with Carrie Hopkins-Doubts
In this episode, Lesa welcomes Carrie Hopkins-Doubts, a spiritual resilience coach specializing in helping individuals through life transitions and difficult times such as grief, divorce, and loss. Carrie shares her journey from training as a marriage and family therapist to becoming a grief coach after experiencing personal loss, including the death of her mother and second husband. The conversation covers the various forms of grief, the importance of creating a safe space to express emotions, and the difference between therapy and coaching. Carrie also outlines the first three steps of her nine-step 'Rebuilding Your Life After Loss' program and discusses the impact of projecting our feelings and the importance of radical self-care. Listeners are invited to explore Carrie's resources and services through her company, Life's Next Chapter Coaching.
00:00 Introduction and Guest Welcome
01:16 Carrie's Journey to Becoming a Grief Coach
02:11 Personal Experiences with Grief and Loss
04:36 Understanding Grief and Moving Forward
08:32 Stages of Grief and Rebuilding Life
10:20 Creating a Safe Space for Grief
14:06 Radical Self-Care During Grief
15:35 Making Peace with the Past
22:58 Conclusion and Contact Information
@saddleuplive
https://linktr.ee/LesaKoski
Carrie Hopkins-Doubts, a renowned grief counselor, transformational coach, and founder of Life’s Next Chapter Coaching. Carrie specializes in helping individuals navigate major life transitions, particularly those involving profound loss and identity shifts.
Transcript
Welcome listeners.
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:I am so happy that you're here today.
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:I have Carrie Hopkins doubts with
me, and it's going to be a really
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:fun conversation, maybe not about a
super fun subject, but we're going to
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:get to know Carrie more through this
episode and Carrie is, a spiritual
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:resilience coach, and I think she
helps people a lot of times through
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:life transitions or difficult times,
kind of rebuilding after loss.
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:So that's what this episode is about.
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:And you know what I, what I always
want, we were kind of talking about
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:this before people to know that
grief isn't just about death, it is
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:about death, but grief can be about.
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:Divorce grief can be about going through
a different, you know, having a different
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:way of life It can be a lot of different
things So it affects us all even if we
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:don't realize it even if it hasn't been
someone close to us who's died There
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:are things that have Moved and changed.
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:So Carrie, welcome.
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:I'm so happy that you're here.
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:Can you just help us get to know you
better and what led you to do this work?
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:Sure, Lisa this is such
a great conversation.
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:And like you said not a welcome
subject for a lot of people,
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:but I love talking about this.
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:what led me to, well, I started out as
a grief coach, I had, before becoming
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:a coach done all the training to become
a marriage and family therapist and
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:got into my internship and just decided
this was not the career path for me.
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:It was really to.
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:clinical too much for me.
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:I love therapists.
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:I think therapy is great, but
it just wasn't great for me.
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:and then I decided to go into
coach training and I got myself
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:trained and certified as a coach.
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:And because I had had all of that
training and being able to sit with
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:people with, you know, big emotions.
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:I thought, well, why don't I use this
as my specialization in coaching?
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:And so I started out doing that just
because I'd lost my mom during the time
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:that I was in the coach training program.
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:That was a big loss for me.
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:My relationship with my mom was, it
was, let's just say, a little tense.
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:So I loved her, she loved me, but
we didn't get along that well.
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:So there was a lot of ambivalence in the
relationship, that ambivalent attachment.
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:And when she died, it really hit me hard
because there was no chance for me to get
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:the love that I was thinking I was ever
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:going to get from her because,
you know, the chance was over.
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:So when I went through that and
decided to focus on grief, I also found
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:myself focusing on divorce because
that was also part of my background.
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:I was divorced in 1992 and that was
one of the most challenging, difficult,
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:painful situations that I'd been
through at that point in my life.
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:So I found myself working with
people going through divorce, through
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:bereavement, through job loss, any
of these things where there's an
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:ending of some normal part of your
life and where grief will come in.
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:And it's really important just to have
somebody to talk these things through.
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:And then, about three and a half
years, my second husband died suddenly.
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:Oh, jeez.
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:Yeah.
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:so it was not only, okay, I'm
certified as a grief counselor, I
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:know the territory, I know the maps,
but I got to walk the territory this
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:time, and sometimes on my hands and
knees, it was incredibly painful.
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:And, to this day now, fast forward to
today, I worked through my own process
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:using my own program and also the help
of my own coach and I really adapted
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:to and created a life that I love
on the other side of that huge loss.
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:So I'm still working with people in
those arenas, but I've recontexted
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:the work that I do calling it
spiritual resilience, because
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:that's what we're really going for.
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:To know yourself as capable, creative,
resourceful, and whole, even when
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:you're going through grief and loss.
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:Thank you for sharing that because
there were, there were many
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:things that you touched on that
I think people could relate to.
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:One is if you have a parent that
passes that maybe you didn't get along
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:with, There's still grief there, I
have someone really close to me who
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:I have a, several people who have
lost their spouse and, I really want
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:to help people who go through that.
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:And you lose them in divorce
and death, however that works.
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:But I know in particular, this one
that's very close to me, I think she
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:has just, Come to the conclusion,
you know, she's handling it.
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:She's gotten therapy, which I love She's
had a really good Therapist and I I do
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:want to say the difference between therapy
and coaching and I think therapy is so
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:helpful We all need talk therapy now and
then when I think of coaching I think of
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:as moving forward of how you're going to
maybe change things in the future And for
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:this person in particular, I feel bad.
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:She's a little bit older than me
and they were very, very close.
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:And I don't know that she has
a lot of hope for the future.
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:I think there's a lot of feeling like,
well, I'm kind of looking forward to,
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:to being there with him at some point.
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:Man, I sure would love
to see her happy, joyful.
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:And I know with grief, I
think I understand Carrie that
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:we always carry it with us.
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:It's always here.
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:It's that little piece that's
there, but you can still find
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:joy and yeah, you're changed.
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:And yeah, there's something different
and you, and you know that that loss
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:is there and you, and alongside that.
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:I can go and enjoy things as well.
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:Does that sound right?
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:Absolutely.
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:And it depends also on the amount
of time that has passed between the
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:person's death and now because it does
take time to process through this.
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:We can still hold that person in our
hearts because they'll always be there.
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:You know, the love that we felt for
that person, we can feel it still.
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:You know, I still feel
that for my husband.
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:I just, it's not in the here
and now and in the present, you
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:know, and it is important, you
said something very important.
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:We want to start moving forward
in our lives, not moving on.
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:You know, a lot of times people say,
Oh, it feels disloyal to move on
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:because that almost, sort of signifies
that you're leaving them behind.
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:You're moving on without them.
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:And so I say, no, we move forward, sort
of adapting to the loss and incorporating
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:the grief into our lives because
like you said, it doesn't go away.
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:It will show up as a grief trigger.
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:All of a sudden you hear a song
that you used to love or, you know,
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:you go to a restaurant and it's
like, Oh yeah, we used to go here,
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:You know, just, we get a memory
triggered and then the grief can.
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:So it's just, it's sort of, I, you know,
I am not surprised when that happens.
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:I just take a breath and it's
like, Oh, here's grief again.
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:It's okay.
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:Just take a breath.
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:Just cry my tears, you know, do what
I need to do to take care of myself.
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:And then, you know, I
picked myself up and I've.
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:rebuilt my life after that great loss.
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:And I moved from, we lived in Arizona.
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:That was the place he wanted
to retire after he was gone.
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:It's like, I don't want to live here.
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:So I moved back to the Los Angeles
area and I'm right around the
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:corner from where my daughter lives.
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:And so, you know, I, I've created a new
life for myself and one that I love.
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:Yep, that's fantastic.
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:And so I kind of want to as I'm sitting
here listening to you I want you to help
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:me if we can I know we don't have a lot of
time But can we talk about okay, so in the
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:beginning stages when this is brand new
now the friend I'm telling you about it's
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:You know, over a couple of years, right?
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:Which who knows?
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:We're all different.
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:I don't know how long it takes,
but, I understand that there has
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:to be a time where you have to sit.
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:And what I love that you said is
that you'll get a wave of grief
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:and you sit and you feel it.
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:I don't know if this is normal,
but I feel like I would run away
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:from those feelings all the time.
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:Oh, I can't feel this way now.
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:You know, get it out.
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:Cause we don't want to,
who wants to feel that?
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:I felt that way too, you know, it's just
like, yeah, but finish your questions.
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:So just for the audience to realize
if you're like me and you run
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:away from those feelings, cause
you don't want to feel them.
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:They are going to be worse or come out a
different way So feel them feel them and
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:then it's almost like they can dissipate.
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:I know sometimes it's hard if
you start You know reeling in it.
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:That's where you can kind of have
issues But okay So what I'm kind of
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:thinking of let's go through some
stages like if someone's brand new
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:into this brand new into a loss
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:I sit and cry You And I think, I don't
know, even when my oldest daughter went
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:to college, I was like, I don't know
if I'm going to get over this couple
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:of weeks to really feel normal again.
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:but, but what do people do in that, in
the early beginning stages of either
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:divorce or death or, diagnosis that
scares them and change, whatever it is.
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:Right.
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:Well, that first stage is exactly, you
know, the first step in my Rebuilding
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:Your Life After Loss program,
which people going through divorce,
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:people going through bereavement,
all kinds of people take this.
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:It's a program, just designed for
grief, no matter what the context.
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:But the first step is creating a
safe space, a safety net for yourself
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:to feel, to heal your feelings.
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:And I shouldn't say heal your feelings
because we don't really heal them, but
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:we experience them, we bring them in, we
welcome them, say, Oh, here's sadness.
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:Sadness is here.
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:we feel it, we name it, you know,
so it's really important to name it.
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:A lot of times people, you know, just
slowing down and naming it helps the
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:brain sort of integrate what's going on.
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:So you feel it, you
name it, you express it.
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:that's where a safe other.
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:really comes into play.
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:You need a place, a person, a
vehicle for you to express, safely,
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:without any judgment, without people
needing to fix you, without people
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:needing to minimize your feelings.
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:often a coach or sometimes it's just
a trusted friend, maybe somebody
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:who's gone through something like
this, and they know how to companion
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:with you and just be there for you.
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:while you express it all.
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:and so that's a very important first step
because like you said, Lisa, if you don't
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:do this, if you try to shove it away
or avoid it or numb it or, do all those
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:things that we do, it's not going away.
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:So what it will do is it hangs out
in our subconscious, our unconscious,
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:comes up in these really overblown
reactions that we have to life where,
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:you know, road rage, something like that.
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:it also can go into body.
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:So it can go into the, the tissue of
the body and somaticize, become illness.
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:There's lots of research about,
unresolved or unmet grief, can
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:lead to a person's illnesses.
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:So it's really important, like you said,
to have a safe place, a safe container.
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:to feel, to release these emotions.
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:And like you said, once you've released
it, once you've really given it that
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:safe space inside of you, like you invite
it to tea, like come sit down, talk,
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:what have you got to share with me?
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:It has a message for you.
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:And then once it's delivered its
message, it goes on, and then you have
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:the next feeling, whatever that is.
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:Right.
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:Okay.
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:You said that is the first
step to your rebuilding steps.
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:How many steps do you have?
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:I have a nine step process.
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:Boy, I don't know if we're going
to be able to get through all nine.
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:It's just realizing, bringing awareness
can sometimes, be all you need.
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:Just knowing that first step is, I
really need to create a safe space
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:for me to feel all of these feelings.
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:You know, grief, it's
going to bring them all.
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:It's going to bring, sadness, hurt.
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:anger, relief, you know, we have
so many feelings, and they're
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:all normal, I have lisakosky.
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:com.
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:If you want to go there,
I have a Facebook page.
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:Feelings wheel.
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:And sometimes I look at that so
you can grab it there that you
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:can probably find them online too.
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:But sometimes if you're having trouble
naming it, that can be helpful.
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:That's right.
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:You know, when people say,
well, how are you feeling?
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:You know, and their answer is I feel good.
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:Right.
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:That's not a feeling that's a label.
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:I know.
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:Mm hmm.
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:What's number two?
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:Second step is creating capacity
through what I call radical self care.
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:You know, because when you're grieving
any kind of loss, often if you are
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:having to help your kids through this
as well, say with a divorce, or you
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:know, you're now a single parent.
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:You know, where you had the, the help
of your spouse before in raising kids,
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:it's often so common, really, for
you to neglect your own self care.
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:And so we start to talk about,
well, how is grief affecting
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:you on the physical level?
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:A lot of times it's,
I'm not sleeping well.
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:I'm not eating well, I'm not
exercising, I'm not doing all those
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:things that, we all know we should
do to take care of ourselves.
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:But what people don't recognize
is if they don't take care of
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:themselves first, they don't have
the capacity to take care of others.
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:It's like putting your own oxygen
mask on first before, you know, like
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:they say on the airplane, right?
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:You have to have your own oxygen
before you can help other people.
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:And I think that is something that
we all know, but that we rarely do.
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:Yeah.
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:And when you're grieving, you're
even more physically depleted
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:than you would be normally.
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:Yeah.
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:And then, yeah, we forget, you
know, to take care of ourselves.
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:that's a good one.
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:Third is making peace with the past.
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:And so when we are sort of unpacking what
has led us to the present moment where
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:this person, either through a divorce
or bereavement, is no longer part of our
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:lives, it's going to bring up Some of the
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:memories, the things that were
unresolved in those relationships.
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:And this is where we take, really
slow things down and look at that.
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:You know, what judgments am I holding
against that person or myself?
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:And this is where we get free of these
limiting beliefs that we've got going
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:on about the nature of relationships,
the nature, you know, it's like we
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:make up meaning, about, well, I guess
I'm just not cut out for marriage
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:because I failed at it three times,
whatever, you know, and people really
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:hurt themselves by hanging on to these,
untruthful, beliefs about themselves.
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:So we really take a look at the past,
not as a way of ruminating about it
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:or anything like that, but just to
look at the dynamics that perhaps
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:maybe created the relationship
issues that you were having.
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:Sometimes also it's, helpful in a
divorce, but also helpful when somebody
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:passes, like for myself, looking at
all the judgments that I held against
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:my mom or myself and, forgiving myself
for the judgments I placed against
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:her, that I placed against myself
as not being a good enough daughter,
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:you know, all of those things.
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:So we really free up a lot of
that energy that is going on.
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:gotten stuck in the past.
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:Well, and okay, I can't help but ask this
has popped into my head and it's kind of
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:the flip side of when someone you love
passes, not someone that you have, you
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:know, some, maybe some unresolved things
with or someone who you're divorced with.
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:I remember hearing people telling
me that sometimes you can.
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:Remember them as perfect, perfect in every
way and not really see them how it was.
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:Is that anything?
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:Yes.
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:That's really smart.
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:I like that you brought that forward
because, you know, if you've ever had
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:children and you go through childbirth
and then, you know, you have this
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:baby and, oh, it's so wonderful.
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:And you forget about all that.
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:That's what our minds do.
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:we tend to minimize or
forget the painful things.
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:So that's often what happens.
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:You also like enshrine this person.
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:Put them up on a pedestal.
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:he was the love of my life.
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:She was the only one for me,
you know, and you're right.
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:It's like we have forgotten about
the fights we used to have or the,
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:that this person wasn't perfect.
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:So it is important to be honest and
you're looking back in the past.
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:And, you know, it's like, well,
this part of it drove me crazy, but,
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:you know, so, it doesn't.
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:If you enshrine that person,
it really makes it difficult to
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:move forward in any other kind of
intimate relationship because you
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:feel like it would be a disloyalty.
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:Yeah.
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:Well, and yeah, that's interesting.
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:And I'm thinking, even when I think
about my grandpa, he was, he was a King.
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:He was perfect now
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:and maybe that, maybe that was okay
that I felt that way when I was young.
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:And then as I have grown, you know,
I can see there have, there were
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:things that he did that weren't
amazing and great and that's okay.
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:And I can still love him.
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:But.
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:That's just so interesting.
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:And I wondered how that would play in
if you, for future relationships, if
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:you did have them on that pedestal,
you can still say, Hey, I'd take him
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:chomping his gum in my ear in a second.
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:But that it wasn't all just to be real.
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:Right.
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:Just to be real, you know, when we shine
a light on something and then we put
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:that spotlight of perfection on somebody,
we're forgetting that there's shadows,
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:there's gonna be shadow, you know?
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:And so it's really important that we
look at somebody with the light and with
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:the shadow, that we look at ourselves
with the light and with the shadow.
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:Because often what we'll do if we
find that we have objectionable
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:traits or behaviors That we don't
accept about ourselves, we can
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:project them onto that other person.
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:Similarly, we can do
a positive projection.
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:We take all the, the things that
we haven't owned about ourselves
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:that are really wonderful.
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:Oh, this person was so smart.
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:He was so gorgeous.
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:He was this.
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:He was kind.
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:and these could be unowned
aspects of ourselves that we're
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:projecting onto that person.
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:We're not seeing the person
as they truly are or were.
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:We're seeing our projection.
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:So that's what part of what we look
at in this third phase of the program.
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:We look at the owning and accepting
those projections and bringing
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:them back home and go, you know, I
sometimes treat myself like this too.
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:If it's a negative projection, or
I treat other people like that.
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:And it's interesting because
isn't that unconditional love.
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:is loving their shadows too?
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:Unconditional love is not
easy to do in a relationship.
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:that's the spiritual level
of unconditional loving.
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:the loving of the universe, of God,
whatever people's spiritual beliefs
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:are, that's where unconditional love is.
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:But we have conditioned love in
relationships, but the more that we can
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:do our own work in relationship, whether
it's a current relationship or a past
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:relationship, The more that we can own our
own stuff and take responsibility for it,
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:the more that we can have happy, really
productive and loving relationships.
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:Now.
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:So good.
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:So good.
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:And so I'm looking at the time, Carrie.
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:I can't wait.
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:Like I'm actually talking.
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:Oh my gosh, look at that.
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:I know.
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:I think I'm talking
more than I usually do.
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:Ooh.
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:And this is what I'm wondering.
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:Would you come back on?
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:I'd be happy to.
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:And then we could talk about
the, so did we get through three?
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:We got through three, you know,
cause that, that's really a good
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:place because that's setting
the foundation for what's next.
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:All right.
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:I won't say what's next.
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:All right.
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:Well, we'll be sitting here
anticipating what's next.
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:And I'm going to see if I can get us
scheduled here when we're done on this,
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:but I just have to, I so appreciate this.
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:And I get, I got lost in it because
it was so fun to learn from you.
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:So thank you.
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:Thank you for going through something
hard and using it to help the world.
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:That's such a blessing.
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:And I want you to know that I see that.
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:And I'm very, very grateful.
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:and then Keri, if our listeners
want help from you, we'll have
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:your information in the show notes.
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:What's the best way to
reach out and work with you?
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:Oh, the best way to reach me is my company
is called Life's Next Chapter Coaching.
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:And that's really what we're
doing is we're creating your
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:life's next chapter after chapter.
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:you know, whatever you're going
through is, resolving itself.
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:So they can reach me at, Carrie
at Life's Next Chapter Coaching.
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:They can visit me on my website.
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:There's lots of resources.
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:There's information about my Rebuilding
Your Life After Loss program.
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:And so, yeah, that's the
best way to reach me.
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:Wonderful.
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:So listeners, if you need a little help
in this area, at least go look at those
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:free resources or reach out to Carrie.
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:So Carrie, I'm so excited that
you're going to come back and
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:thank you so much for being here.
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:Well, Lisa, thank you for
this great conversation and
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:for having me on your show.
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:I really appreciate it.
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:My pleasure.
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:You take good care.
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:Yeah, you too.