Episode 28

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Published on:

5th Nov 2024

From Heartbreak to Hope: Rebuilding Your Life After Loss with Carrie Hopkins-Doubts

In this episode, Lesa welcomes Carrie Hopkins-Doubts, a spiritual resilience coach specializing in helping individuals through life transitions and difficult times such as grief, divorce, and loss. Carrie shares her journey from training as a marriage and family therapist to becoming a grief coach after experiencing personal loss, including the death of her mother and second husband. The conversation covers the various forms of grief, the importance of creating a safe space to express emotions, and the difference between therapy and coaching. Carrie also outlines the first three steps of her nine-step 'Rebuilding Your Life After Loss' program and discusses the impact of projecting our feelings and the importance of radical self-care. Listeners are invited to explore Carrie's resources and services through her company, Life's Next Chapter Coaching.

00:00 Introduction and Guest Welcome

01:16 Carrie's Journey to Becoming a Grief Coach

02:11 Personal Experiences with Grief and Loss

04:36 Understanding Grief and Moving Forward

08:32 Stages of Grief and Rebuilding Life

10:20 Creating a Safe Space for Grief

14:06 Radical Self-Care During Grief

15:35 Making Peace with the Past

22:58 Conclusion and Contact Information

saddleuplive.com 

saddleuppod.com.  

@saddleuplive

https://linktr.ee/LesaKoski

 Carrie Hopkins-Doubts, a renowned grief counselor, transformational coach, and founder of Life’s Next Chapter Coaching. Carrie specializes in helping individuals navigate major life transitions, particularly those involving profound loss and identity shifts.



Transcript
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Welcome listeners.

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I am so happy that you're here today.

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I have Carrie Hopkins doubts with

me, and it's going to be a really

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fun conversation, maybe not about a

super fun subject, but we're going to

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get to know Carrie more through this

episode and Carrie is, a spiritual

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resilience coach, and I think she

helps people a lot of times through

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life transitions or difficult times,

kind of rebuilding after loss.

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So that's what this episode is about.

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And you know what I, what I always

want, we were kind of talking about

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this before people to know that

grief isn't just about death, it is

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about death, but grief can be about.

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Divorce grief can be about going through

a different, you know, having a different

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way of life It can be a lot of different

things So it affects us all even if we

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don't realize it even if it hasn't been

someone close to us who's died There

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are things that have Moved and changed.

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So Carrie, welcome.

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I'm so happy that you're here.

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Can you just help us get to know you

better and what led you to do this work?

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Sure, Lisa this is such

a great conversation.

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And like you said not a welcome

subject for a lot of people,

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but I love talking about this.

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what led me to, well, I started out as

a grief coach, I had, before becoming

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a coach done all the training to become

a marriage and family therapist and

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got into my internship and just decided

this was not the career path for me.

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It was really to.

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clinical too much for me.

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I love therapists.

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I think therapy is great, but

it just wasn't great for me.

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and then I decided to go into

coach training and I got myself

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trained and certified as a coach.

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And because I had had all of that

training and being able to sit with

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people with, you know, big emotions.

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I thought, well, why don't I use this

as my specialization in coaching?

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And so I started out doing that just

because I'd lost my mom during the time

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that I was in the coach training program.

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That was a big loss for me.

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My relationship with my mom was, it

was, let's just say, a little tense.

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So I loved her, she loved me, but

we didn't get along that well.

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So there was a lot of ambivalence in the

relationship, that ambivalent attachment.

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And when she died, it really hit me hard

because there was no chance for me to get

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the love that I was thinking I was ever

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going to get from her because,

you know, the chance was over.

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So when I went through that and

decided to focus on grief, I also found

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myself focusing on divorce because

that was also part of my background.

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I was divorced in 1992 and that was

one of the most challenging, difficult,

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painful situations that I'd been

through at that point in my life.

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So I found myself working with

people going through divorce, through

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bereavement, through job loss, any

of these things where there's an

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ending of some normal part of your

life and where grief will come in.

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And it's really important just to have

somebody to talk these things through.

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And then, about three and a half

years, my second husband died suddenly.

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Oh, jeez.

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Yeah.

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so it was not only, okay, I'm

certified as a grief counselor, I

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know the territory, I know the maps,

but I got to walk the territory this

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time, and sometimes on my hands and

knees, it was incredibly painful.

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And, to this day now, fast forward to

today, I worked through my own process

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using my own program and also the help

of my own coach and I really adapted

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to and created a life that I love

on the other side of that huge loss.

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So I'm still working with people in

those arenas, but I've recontexted

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the work that I do calling it

spiritual resilience, because

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that's what we're really going for.

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To know yourself as capable, creative,

resourceful, and whole, even when

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you're going through grief and loss.

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Thank you for sharing that because

there were, there were many

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things that you touched on that

I think people could relate to.

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One is if you have a parent that

passes that maybe you didn't get along

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with, There's still grief there, I

have someone really close to me who

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I have a, several people who have

lost their spouse and, I really want

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to help people who go through that.

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And you lose them in divorce

and death, however that works.

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But I know in particular, this one

that's very close to me, I think she

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has just, Come to the conclusion,

you know, she's handling it.

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She's gotten therapy, which I love She's

had a really good Therapist and I I do

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want to say the difference between therapy

and coaching and I think therapy is so

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helpful We all need talk therapy now and

then when I think of coaching I think of

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as moving forward of how you're going to

maybe change things in the future And for

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this person in particular, I feel bad.

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She's a little bit older than me

and they were very, very close.

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And I don't know that she has

a lot of hope for the future.

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I think there's a lot of feeling like,

well, I'm kind of looking forward to,

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to being there with him at some point.

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Man, I sure would love

to see her happy, joyful.

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And I know with grief, I

think I understand Carrie that

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we always carry it with us.

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It's always here.

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It's that little piece that's

there, but you can still find

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joy and yeah, you're changed.

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And yeah, there's something different

and you, and you know that that loss

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is there and you, and alongside that.

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I can go and enjoy things as well.

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Does that sound right?

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Absolutely.

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And it depends also on the amount

of time that has passed between the

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person's death and now because it does

take time to process through this.

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We can still hold that person in our

hearts because they'll always be there.

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You know, the love that we felt for

that person, we can feel it still.

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You know, I still feel

that for my husband.

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I just, it's not in the here

and now and in the present, you

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know, and it is important, you

said something very important.

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We want to start moving forward

in our lives, not moving on.

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You know, a lot of times people say,

Oh, it feels disloyal to move on

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because that almost, sort of signifies

that you're leaving them behind.

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You're moving on without them.

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And so I say, no, we move forward, sort

of adapting to the loss and incorporating

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the grief into our lives because

like you said, it doesn't go away.

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It will show up as a grief trigger.

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All of a sudden you hear a song

that you used to love or, you know,

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you go to a restaurant and it's

like, Oh yeah, we used to go here,

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You know, just, we get a memory

triggered and then the grief can.

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So it's just, it's sort of, I, you know,

I am not surprised when that happens.

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I just take a breath and it's

like, Oh, here's grief again.

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It's okay.

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Just take a breath.

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Just cry my tears, you know, do what

I need to do to take care of myself.

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And then, you know, I

picked myself up and I've.

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rebuilt my life after that great loss.

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And I moved from, we lived in Arizona.

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That was the place he wanted

to retire after he was gone.

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It's like, I don't want to live here.

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So I moved back to the Los Angeles

area and I'm right around the

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corner from where my daughter lives.

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And so, you know, I, I've created a new

life for myself and one that I love.

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Yep, that's fantastic.

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And so I kind of want to as I'm sitting

here listening to you I want you to help

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me if we can I know we don't have a lot of

time But can we talk about okay, so in the

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beginning stages when this is brand new

now the friend I'm telling you about it's

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You know, over a couple of years, right?

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Which who knows?

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We're all different.

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I don't know how long it takes,

but, I understand that there has

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to be a time where you have to sit.

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And what I love that you said is

that you'll get a wave of grief

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and you sit and you feel it.

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I don't know if this is normal,

but I feel like I would run away

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from those feelings all the time.

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Oh, I can't feel this way now.

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You know, get it out.

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Cause we don't want to,

who wants to feel that?

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I felt that way too, you know, it's just

like, yeah, but finish your questions.

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So just for the audience to realize

if you're like me and you run

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away from those feelings, cause

you don't want to feel them.

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They are going to be worse or come out a

different way So feel them feel them and

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then it's almost like they can dissipate.

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I know sometimes it's hard if

you start You know reeling in it.

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That's where you can kind of have

issues But okay So what I'm kind of

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thinking of let's go through some

stages like if someone's brand new

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into this brand new into a loss

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I sit and cry You And I think, I don't

know, even when my oldest daughter went

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to college, I was like, I don't know

if I'm going to get over this couple

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of weeks to really feel normal again.

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but, but what do people do in that, in

the early beginning stages of either

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divorce or death or, diagnosis that

scares them and change, whatever it is.

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Right.

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Well, that first stage is exactly, you

know, the first step in my Rebuilding

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Your Life After Loss program,

which people going through divorce,

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people going through bereavement,

all kinds of people take this.

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It's a program, just designed for

grief, no matter what the context.

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But the first step is creating a

safe space, a safety net for yourself

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to feel, to heal your feelings.

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And I shouldn't say heal your feelings

because we don't really heal them, but

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we experience them, we bring them in, we

welcome them, say, Oh, here's sadness.

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Sadness is here.

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we feel it, we name it, you know,

so it's really important to name it.

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A lot of times people, you know, just

slowing down and naming it helps the

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brain sort of integrate what's going on.

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So you feel it, you

name it, you express it.

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that's where a safe other.

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really comes into play.

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You need a place, a person, a

vehicle for you to express, safely,

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without any judgment, without people

needing to fix you, without people

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needing to minimize your feelings.

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often a coach or sometimes it's just

a trusted friend, maybe somebody

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who's gone through something like

this, and they know how to companion

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with you and just be there for you.

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while you express it all.

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and so that's a very important first step

because like you said, Lisa, if you don't

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do this, if you try to shove it away

or avoid it or numb it or, do all those

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things that we do, it's not going away.

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So what it will do is it hangs out

in our subconscious, our unconscious,

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comes up in these really overblown

reactions that we have to life where,

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you know, road rage, something like that.

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it also can go into body.

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So it can go into the, the tissue of

the body and somaticize, become illness.

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There's lots of research about,

unresolved or unmet grief, can

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lead to a person's illnesses.

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So it's really important, like you said,

to have a safe place, a safe container.

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to feel, to release these emotions.

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And like you said, once you've released

it, once you've really given it that

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safe space inside of you, like you invite

it to tea, like come sit down, talk,

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what have you got to share with me?

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It has a message for you.

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And then once it's delivered its

message, it goes on, and then you have

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the next feeling, whatever that is.

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Right.

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Okay.

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You said that is the first

step to your rebuilding steps.

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How many steps do you have?

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I have a nine step process.

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Boy, I don't know if we're going

to be able to get through all nine.

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It's just realizing, bringing awareness

can sometimes, be all you need.

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Just knowing that first step is, I

really need to create a safe space

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for me to feel all of these feelings.

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You know, grief, it's

going to bring them all.

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It's going to bring, sadness, hurt.

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anger, relief, you know, we have

so many feelings, and they're

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all normal, I have lisakosky.

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com.

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If you want to go there,

I have a Facebook page.

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Feelings wheel.

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And sometimes I look at that so

you can grab it there that you

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can probably find them online too.

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But sometimes if you're having trouble

naming it, that can be helpful.

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That's right.

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You know, when people say,

well, how are you feeling?

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You know, and their answer is I feel good.

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Right.

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That's not a feeling that's a label.

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I know.

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Mm hmm.

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What's number two?

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Second step is creating capacity

through what I call radical self care.

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You know, because when you're grieving

any kind of loss, often if you are

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having to help your kids through this

as well, say with a divorce, or you

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know, you're now a single parent.

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You know, where you had the, the help

of your spouse before in raising kids,

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it's often so common, really, for

you to neglect your own self care.

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And so we start to talk about,

well, how is grief affecting

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you on the physical level?

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A lot of times it's,

I'm not sleeping well.

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I'm not eating well, I'm not

exercising, I'm not doing all those

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things that, we all know we should

do to take care of ourselves.

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But what people don't recognize

is if they don't take care of

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themselves first, they don't have

the capacity to take care of others.

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It's like putting your own oxygen

mask on first before, you know, like

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they say on the airplane, right?

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You have to have your own oxygen

before you can help other people.

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And I think that is something that

we all know, but that we rarely do.

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And when you're grieving, you're

even more physically depleted

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than you would be normally.

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And then, yeah, we forget, you

know, to take care of ourselves.

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that's a good one.

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Third is making peace with the past.

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And so when we are sort of unpacking what

has led us to the present moment where

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this person, either through a divorce

or bereavement, is no longer part of our

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lives, it's going to bring up Some of the

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memories, the things that were

unresolved in those relationships.

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And this is where we take, really

slow things down and look at that.

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You know, what judgments am I holding

against that person or myself?

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And this is where we get free of these

limiting beliefs that we've got going

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on about the nature of relationships,

the nature, you know, it's like we

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make up meaning, about, well, I guess

I'm just not cut out for marriage

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because I failed at it three times,

whatever, you know, and people really

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hurt themselves by hanging on to these,

untruthful, beliefs about themselves.

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So we really take a look at the past,

not as a way of ruminating about it

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or anything like that, but just to

look at the dynamics that perhaps

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maybe created the relationship

issues that you were having.

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Sometimes also it's, helpful in a

divorce, but also helpful when somebody

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passes, like for myself, looking at

all the judgments that I held against

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my mom or myself and, forgiving myself

for the judgments I placed against

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her, that I placed against myself

as not being a good enough daughter,

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you know, all of those things.

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So we really free up a lot of

that energy that is going on.

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gotten stuck in the past.

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Well, and okay, I can't help but ask this

has popped into my head and it's kind of

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the flip side of when someone you love

passes, not someone that you have, you

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know, some, maybe some unresolved things

with or someone who you're divorced with.

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I remember hearing people telling

me that sometimes you can.

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Remember them as perfect, perfect in every

way and not really see them how it was.

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Is that anything?

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Yes.

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That's really smart.

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I like that you brought that forward

because, you know, if you've ever had

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children and you go through childbirth

and then, you know, you have this

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baby and, oh, it's so wonderful.

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And you forget about all that.

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That's what our minds do.

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we tend to minimize or

forget the painful things.

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So that's often what happens.

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You also like enshrine this person.

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Put them up on a pedestal.

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he was the love of my life.

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She was the only one for me,

you know, and you're right.

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It's like we have forgotten about

the fights we used to have or the,

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that this person wasn't perfect.

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So it is important to be honest and

you're looking back in the past.

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And, you know, it's like, well,

this part of it drove me crazy, but,

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you know, so, it doesn't.

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If you enshrine that person,

it really makes it difficult to

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move forward in any other kind of

intimate relationship because you

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feel like it would be a disloyalty.

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Yeah.

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Well, and yeah, that's interesting.

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And I'm thinking, even when I think

about my grandpa, he was, he was a King.

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He was perfect now

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and maybe that, maybe that was okay

that I felt that way when I was young.

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And then as I have grown, you know,

I can see there have, there were

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things that he did that weren't

amazing and great and that's okay.

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And I can still love him.

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But.

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That's just so interesting.

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And I wondered how that would play in

if you, for future relationships, if

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you did have them on that pedestal,

you can still say, Hey, I'd take him

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chomping his gum in my ear in a second.

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I mean, right.

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But that it wasn't all just to be real.

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Right.

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Just to be real, you know, when we shine

a light on something and then we put

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that spotlight of perfection on somebody,

we're forgetting that there's shadows,

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there's gonna be shadow, you know?

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And so it's really important that we

look at somebody with the light and with

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the shadow, that we look at ourselves

with the light and with the shadow.

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Because often what we'll do if we

find that we have objectionable

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traits or behaviors That we don't

accept about ourselves, we can

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project them onto that other person.

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Similarly, we can do

a positive projection.

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We take all the, the things that

we haven't owned about ourselves

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that are really wonderful.

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Oh, this person was so smart.

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He was so gorgeous.

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He was this.

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He was kind.

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and these could be unowned

aspects of ourselves that we're

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projecting onto that person.

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We're not seeing the person

as they truly are or were.

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We're seeing our projection.

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So that's what part of what we look

at in this third phase of the program.

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We look at the owning and accepting

those projections and bringing

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them back home and go, you know, I

sometimes treat myself like this too.

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If it's a negative projection, or

I treat other people like that.

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And it's interesting because

isn't that unconditional love.

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is loving their shadows too?

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Unconditional love is not

easy to do in a relationship.

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that's the spiritual level

of unconditional loving.

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the loving of the universe, of God,

whatever people's spiritual beliefs

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are, that's where unconditional love is.

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But we have conditioned love in

relationships, but the more that we can

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do our own work in relationship, whether

it's a current relationship or a past

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relationship, The more that we can own our

own stuff and take responsibility for it,

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the more that we can have happy, really

productive and loving relationships.

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Now.

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Now.

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Yeah.

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So good.

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Yeah.

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So good.

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And so I'm looking at the time, Carrie.

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I can't wait.

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Like I'm actually talking.

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Oh my gosh, look at that.

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I know.

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I think I'm talking

more than I usually do.

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Ooh.

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And this is what I'm wondering.

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Would you come back on?

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I'd be happy to.

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And then we could talk about

the, so did we get through three?

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We got through three, you know,

cause that, that's really a good

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place because that's setting

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About the Podcast

Saddle Up Live Podcast
Welcome to Saddle Up Live, a transformative podcast tailored for women aged 40 and beyond, where courage, God’ s grace, and a touch of sass are the driving forces behind conquering life's challenges. Join me, Lesa Koski, as I take you on a captivating ride through the multifaceted aspects of womanhood in this vibrant stage of life, covering everything from my journey through breast cancer, the intricacies of marriage and the joys of motherhood to the exciting adventures of grandparenting.

In each episode, we saddle up for candid conversations about God, health, relationships, family dynamics, and the beautiful chaos that comes along the way. But here's the twist: Saddle Up Live goes beyond navigating the highs and lows of life; it's a platform dedicated to sharing what we have learned along the way. I want to help women thrive through it all. Together, we'll uncover actionable strategies for personal and professional development, providing you with the tools and inspiration needed to blaze new trails and seize every opportunity that comes your way.

Moreover, we're committed to helping you suffer less and live more fully. Through our discussions on God, health, wellness, and mindfulness, we'll explore practical techniques for managing stress, cultivating resilience, and embracing a holistic approach to self-care.

So, whether you're looking for practical advice, heartfelt stories, or simply a supportive community of like-minded women, saddle up and join us on this exhilarating ride. Because at Saddle Up Live, we believe that every woman deserves to thrive, flourish, and live her best life - no matter her age or stage.


Bio: I am a wife, a mama, a grandma and an animal lover. I am blessed to be serving people from my barn office. I am obsessed with learning and communication. I love sharing what I learn with all of you! There is nothing more gratifying than holding people's hands through difficulties and sharing all the joy around us!
I am a recovering attorney who was mostly a stay at home mom; who adopted one and birthed two, ridden the bumpy marriage ride for 32 years. Found my passion at 50, learned how to control my mindset and anxiety and have built an amazing business in the last 6 years. I have journeyed through motherhood, weddings, grandbabies, entrepreneurship and menopause with grace, tears and laughter. I now I will share my story through breast cancer with you. I want to help women suffer less, know God loves them and they are worthy!! I am here to help you and I know all about what you’re going through.

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